As I sit here in my fuzzy robe, obnoxious pink pig slippers, favorite PJs, and a big ol' glass of wine...I breath.
There is hope! There is a light! I MIGHT have very well found a way to be happy as a working mother!
Before I was pregnant, I was so career driven. I dropped out of college after three years- cause honest to God, it just wasn't for me. I knew the path I'd chosen would be a hard one, but I was ready to hit the ground running. I got my first big girl job at age 20- I started out reception but was determined to move up. Now? I'm a Project Coordinator, and proud of it. But somewhere along the line, I changed. Even after I got pregnant I had no desire to stay home full time so we never discussed it, much less planned for it. Then about half way through my pregnancy it was like a light bulb went off. I wanted to stay home. shit!
To this day I've not found a way to make that happen. We just cannot afford for me to be out of work. period. So what do I do? I found myself so unhappy. My house is a mess, dinner is never planned or anywhere close to being ready before 8pm, and the most awful thing ever? I was getting no time with my baby, who is growing up way too fast for my liking. I'd get home, feed her, start dinner, bath her, put her to bed. I'd get MAYBE 45 minutes with her every night. I HATED IT. I felt guilt, like the most awful Mommy ever. I knew I would never get this time back, but I didnt know how to change it.
and then? prayers were answered. I was approached about a possible position. and I knew right away it could not be more perfect for my situation. I'll work 7-3 Monday through Thursday and till noon on Fridays. Um...that means like 4 hours a night with my baby! And over all just more TIME. To clean my house, get dinner ready for when Joey gets home, less stress at work, no bringing home work with me. its truly a win win!
I really feel like this is the ideal situation for our little family, and it makes me SO happy to know I'll have time with my girl, and to actually be a mommy!
Moore, Oklahoma was my home.
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